Got a car: Chevy Corsica (CHEVY!!!!!!) and going to college 4 days a week.

I GOT A JOB! WOO! WORKING AT THE MOVIE THEATRE! lol...actually, it's more like an oversized house with 3 bigscreens but it pays! :-)

For all of you keeping track of my soap opera *~*~*~*~* I'm dating Raven, the guy that I've liked since...I met lol and he didn't know that but he liked me and it was just a big huge situation but kawaii! *Japanese for 'cute'* We started goin on on December 28 =^.^= can't wait to see what happens in the future! We don't fight at all, we just...scold and pout lol, it's great ^.^;;

 Nothing can rain on my parade today! w00t w00t!!!! ...cept one thing...>.<;; sending Xmas gifts to Maryland and New York, ahhh the horror of Xmas shipping LOL

~*~*~*~Okies, now it is April 27, 2005, still goin strong with Raven and guess what ppls, I'm engaged, oh yea, that's right! lol *bobs head like Quagmire* anyway! We're lookin to "purchase a house" with Faerie and Luigi...the ones on my homepage...yes, no no go up a lil, no u past them...yep! them! :-P Um...*thinks* ...Oh yesh! I'm in a yahoo group: posmms lol it's for Wiccans around my area and I know my friend's dad from Witchvox...yes, a lot has happened lol...OH! I got hired at Mickey Ds and startin tomorrow...*thinks* and I'm TRYING to get on at Wally World ^.^;; with Faerie lol, I'll be workin with Luigi at Mickey Ds and Faerie and Raven up at Wally World. Wish me luck! Toodles! Blessed Be.

~*~August 17th, 2005: I turned 19 2 days ago...damn, it was weird! lol, Raven got me a new DVD player cuz mine broke because my sister doesn't realize that the lil button that looks like an eject symbol on it...actually OPENS the thing. SOOOOO...yea, now, the thing that spins it, actually didn't know how to spin again. It works...sorta. It doesn't play a movie but yea, what can ya do lol. He got me the Gwen Stefani CD too...omgosh, it's got all kinds of awesome songs on it including Rich Girl, What are you waitin for, and Hollaback Girl...but o my FRIGGIN God and Goddess! It's got this totally fucked uplicious song: Kuroshuku Girls on it! IT FUCKEN ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF! YA GOTTA HEAR IT! SO GO ON, DOWNLOAD IT! NOW! HAHAHA, I'm nuts, I know...

Now, I'm shopping for Bday gifts and Xmas gifts too...I got most the bday gifts, I just gotta get one more...and Imma lookin for one as we speak...I love the net lol...I have about a 1/4 of my xmas shopping done too...I'm so ahead! And that's a good thing cuz when I can get all this outta the way, I can get the loan and all that other bullshit outta my way too! Yea, I got a loan just to build credit and let's see...my dad and grandmother and mostly the rest of my mom's family met Jon. Grandmother hit the roof cuz she's back in the stone age where u only get married if ur pregnant lol and dad...hell, he took it better than I did. That was fucked up! And awesome. But more fucked up LOL. Happy Birthday to me, la la la lol. Let's see...also, Knox. Pagan Pride Festival is comin up on Saturday, but I dunno if I'll make that cuz if I do, that means I miss Raven's brother's bday...and that would suck cuz I'm playin matchmaker with his brother and my best friend. HAHAHAHA she'll really be my sister if this goes all good! 

Toodles! Blessed Be! Merry we met, Merry we'll part and Merry we'll meet again! )O( Yea!

~*~09/18/05~*~ Been a while, I know. But so much has happened. My mother gave me an ultimatum cuz I chose not to go to school for a semester. Gawd, I just can't win anymore. I take a break and all of a sudden, get out. Ok, whatever. Bye. Anyway, gonna find an apt soon and live by myself. Jon and I aren't engaged anymore cuz...well I'm not ready for it. When I get out on my own and support my own happy ass, I'll let him know what's going to happen from there. I don't know yet. I don't know if he's the one I wanna be with, I don't know what I'm thinking, where my head is, nuttin. Soooo, yea, I just wanna live on my own a bit. Away from this hellhole of whirlpoolish thoughts. On a good note, I talked to Skitch a little while back. I miss him lol, he's so awesome. He's got a new band or something like that and I gave him all my support in his album and stuff. Anyway, that's what's goin' on. Toodleloos lil Caboose!

~*~ 11/11/05 ~*~

So now I'm moving to Maryland to get my life situated. It's gonna be a long haul but I just have to do it, it's just something that can't wait anymore. I'm gonna miss all my friends, I realize this but I need room to breathe, and time to think just like Reba's song, "Room to Breathe." I'm afraid of what will happen if I don't follow my gut, bad things have happened before. Anyhow, wish me luck, I'll find myself and let others know who I am.

~*~ 11/14/05 ~*~
I'm in MD safely, perhaps I will get more lovins! lol just kiddin, mom led me up here and I might get a job at Spencers LOL, that would be awesome! Write later! Blessed be! )O(

~*~ 12/4/05 ~*~

Let's see, I got the job at Spencers! Yea! It's awesome and the people are all so nice lol. I have a gay Supervisor, it's awesome! I'm enrolling in College of Southern Maryland if I can. Oh yea, and I told someone how I really felt. Man, that was...wow. Alas, yes, I've decided that even if it doesn't work out with him, I won't be depressed that he dates or gets married or anything like that again. I'll stick by his side till he says to leave...or I die, then I'll just watch over him from the spirit world...and I'll meet him again and maybe have better luck. :-)

 )O( Blessed Be! )O(

~*~ 12/11/05 ~*~

Alas, I got accepted to College of Southern Maryland but I may not go this semester, I'll have to talk it over with my grandmother. If I don't go, I plan to go to Florida in Febuary around the time of the fair to spend some time with Jessica, James, and Sarah. :-) I dunno what is to happen but hopefully it'll be alright. Wish me luck! I gotta go to work at 4:00 tomorrow...today...eck, 12 hours away. Bleh.

)O( Blessed Be )O(

~*~ 1/10/06 ~*~

Wow...New Years was alright...I quit Spencers cuz I had a sexist manager...yup yup! So...I have an interview at 5 tomorrow at Topolino to become a waitress...and if I get that job, here we go life! LOL I mean it! I'm gonna go get braces, apply for Summer and Autumn classes at PG community probably...I'll take some of the classes at Andrews AFB if I can...woot! SO I dunno what's in store for me. *.*

)O( Blessed Be )O(

~*~2/1/06~*~

Figured as much! I was in love with an idea...Sucky. LMAO but now that I know...I can broaden horizons with someone I relate much more than someone I -thought- I related to. Yesh...an Asian that speaks with a French accent...lmao, don't ask...but yea, looking back, I never would have thought we'd have so much in common...time will tell...

)O( Blessed Be! )O(

~*~ 3/9/06~*~

I fell for someone I didn't ever think I would...at least, not this hard. In high school, I thought it was just a wee crush...now...I can't see myself living or loving anyone else this much. Ever. I get butterflies when he calls me...tells me he loves me...holds me. My God, I love being in his arms...I feel so safe. He's...my safehaven...where I go when I need to be alone...but with him, I'm never alone. And I like it that way. I love Tim.

)O( Blessed Be )O(

I want to get married someday

I want to have kids with someone I love...labor hurts well...so what?? I hear it's worth it.

I want to be rich! LOL, that's a common one

~*~check~*~ I want to be happy with my true self and not someone everyone wants me to be.

~*~check~*~ I want to live my own life without people telling me how to live it.

~*~I want to be happy with everything. I just want to love and be loved by the same person...

~*~check~*~ I want to fully understand myself and my religion: Wicca and I want to be able to use the Craft as a helper not as a hurter.