It's all true and I'll stake it all on my grandfather's ashes...since I'm not Christian, it would be stupid for me to even swear on the bible, right?

Um...this is all really based on my "FORMER" lol stepfather John. If you ever meet him, tell him I said hi LOL.

As I once told Sakura: Don't hate...CASTRATE! WOOOO!

Lol

When I was about to go on stand for custody for either parent, John sat down with me the night before and told me that if I didn't say I wanted to stay with him and mom, I'd be sorry...

At the court, I said I wanted to stay with my real dad and mom both...that week, I couldn't sit down at all.

At around age 7, Michelle was born and she wasn't cared for like Cathy either. Me and Michelle bonded more than anyone with mom because we were all stuck with his ludicrism. Cathy could and still can do no wrong in 'daddy's eyes'

At age 8, we moved to FL from MD and never told my dad. This is where it got worse. My dad found out we were in FL and couldn't do anything about it.

...John would drink rum and coke and be drunk or high every night

When I was in MD one time visiting my dad, he shot up the dining room table while my mom and sisters were in the house...

One bullet ricocheted and shattered the sliding glass door. I can only imagine what my mom and sisters were feeling.

I had to move out of my room and into my mom's because John was bringing a girl in to live there. She would stay in my old room and the door would be locked. No doubt that John had her more of just a friend.

He would bring girls in the house, walk around naked on the patio by the pool, hence the 6 foot fence surrounding the pool cage. Needless to say, the first male penis I ever saw was his. Yes, disturbing even to think about it now.

Mom got up the guts and when John went out to a bar, gathered us all up, clothes and priceless possessions and we drove to a safehouse, a place that is not listed but you can find them if you needed to.

We stayed there for awhile and told my dad where we were. John called my dad and tried to buddy up with him to see where we went. Now come on, you get a guy arrested and then you think he's gonna help you find his daughter and former lover and he hates you anyway? I don't think so. Our secret was safe.

Mom went back to John...I'm not sure why though, but she did and ended up leaving again for good. Filing a restraining order, he wasn't allowed near the house at all.

That's about all I can recall in Florida...but we got so fed up with John's BS of him accusing all of mom's b/fs that they had sexually assaulted his daughters, which mind you, all of the cases were NEGATIVE, that we decided to leave...the state.

We went to TN. John found us and we were forced to come back to FL because mom didn't file a relocation form...

In a desperate attempt to get my sisters away, we tried everything we could. Because there was a shortness in money, we couldn't. They now live with John and she sees them about three times a year.

I was engaged to a man that pinned me against a wall once and that's all it took for me to jolt back to reality, "If he can pin me against a wall without my willingness, who's to say he wouldn't hit me?"

Alas, my mom and I have had a few cases of butting heads and I've moved out twice. Now, I've moved to Maryland with my grandmother.

I have been accepted to College of Southern Maryland and I currently work at Spencers Gifts as a Sales Associate.

I don't regret much in my life...and if I do, I've righted them, just regret how long it took.

I've told the man I've loved for about 5 1/2 years how I felt. We're trying to work it all out.

"You don't need to make anyone happy but yourself."

~*~

I recall, I don't know how old I was, but my grandmother (whom now I call Linda) came down with Pap (now deceased) and I went out to say hi, John told me that they weren't there to see me so go back in my room. Linda was pissed and said she was damn well here to see everyone. John never liked her...nobody does but that earned some respect...but I still call her Linda.